Title: Love Entiers…(part 1)

Series: Learning From the Book of Love

Companion to: Dear Book 1(by My Tigger)

Author: Scarlet

Rated: PG - Angst (but will become NC17 by the end for sex & blood play)

Summary: Scarlet catches up her diary on the recent turn events…

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Dear Diary,

It’s been so long since I’ve written that I’m not even sure where I should start. Goddess, my love life is so damn confusing right now, I’m not even sure I know what’s going on myself.

Okay, so maybe I should start with the a little background info here, first… just to catch you up.

As you know, Tigger and I have been together for quite a while now; just about a year and a half. Gods, it’s only been that long? It feels like he’s always been a part of my life…

Anyway, as you know... last year we got tattoos for one another. I couldn’t have been happier. I love him. He loves me. This was a great way for the two of us to show the world just that, right?

Well yeah, but I still wanted more; even back then. But I also know that Tis, his primary, has always been skittish about marking, claiming, and the whole mating thing. I get that. I really do, but that never stopped me from wanting more…

I accepted things the way they were and we went on, continuing to grow closer and closer- even with that tiny bump in the road last summer, our love still bloomed.

As each of his mates and I got closer, and his mates with mine, our love for one another spread until we became the big, happy and loving family that we are today…

You know all that, right?

Yeah, but what you don’t know too much about is what’s happened in the last few months. Hell, I’m not even sure I told you that back in the fall, not long after we moved to the Bahamas, Tis broke one of her own rules. You know that no breaking skin, no marking one? Yeah that’s the one…

Now, I wasn’t mad back then and I’m certainly not now. The only way I would’ve been upset was if he’d not welcomed it. But he did… and all was right with all of us. My freki was marked. No big deal, really…

To be honest, I’ve never really had a problem with that sorta thing… as long as the people are in love and all that, I’m fine with it.

So we continued on, happy as could be, living the good life down here in the sunny Bahamas.

Then things started to get nasty again. Not within the family, mind you, but around us. And almost all of it was out of our control, too.

Have I ever mentioned how much that pisses me off? To have things go badly and know you have no control over them…? To not be able to control any of the outcome…? Well it does, and that’s normally not a good thing; especially if the little witch-y part of me that’s fae gets her nose out of joint about it.

Anyways, back to what I was saying. Things around me weren’t going too well and a new friend was at the focal point of all of this.

Who knew back in February that a certain little evil succubus and her clan of merry misfits would change my life… no make that our lives... change them and make them so chaotic. Not in a bad way, mind you... just a bit of the good kind of crazy.

We got through all the nonsense mostly intact. As a result, we grew closer and so did certain pairings, or couples, in the process .

Vamps and Bear are on pretty good ground with one another. Vamps and Cae- wow, majorly connecting. Vamps and Marcus… headed in the right direction, I think. Geez... come to think about it, that little demon sure gets a lot of lovin’, doesn’t she. LOL

Anyways… there were other couples, too. Tis and Anu have been getting closer, slowly but surely... oh, and she’s been a bit flirty with her ‘Cupcake’ as well. And from the looks of it, there are some serious sparks going on between Angelina and Wolfie.

But there’s one more couple. Me and Lucifer. Gaaahh… and that’s where it gets complicated.

We stared out as friends just like most relationships do, but what it’s grown into is something I never would’ve expected.

You see, after all the shit that’s gone down with members of our family and others, and things that have happened around us in the last year or so, I’ve become very skittish, too. With my heart.

Not feeling like I can trust anyone outside of the family is one of my problems, or it was… but slowly but surely, with the help of my family and Vamp’s – mostly Luc– I’ve learned that not everyone is out to get you.

Okay, here comes the complicated part. I mean the really complicated part… So I like him, he likes me. We decide to try the dating thing, right? Well of course, so we did.

Our first date was amazing at first. He’d transformed one of the holo’s into Paris just for me…

Note to self- when playing twenty questions with him, never tell him anything you don’t absolutely want remembered. Because one of his first questions was ‘where’s some place in the world you haven’t been that you’d like to visit?’. My answer was- what else- Paris…

So anyways, we ate dinner, drank some wine, and danced along the banks of the Seine. Then we took a walk to the Eiffel tower. And that’s where things started to go amiss in ways neither of us could have expected.

We were up on the top looking out over the city and talking when he said those three little words and I... freaked. So shoot me. Like I said, I was protecting my heart- big time. This was the first relationship outside of my boys and Tis’s and I didn’t know what to do. I was falling in love with Luc, but there was no way I could tell him that, or not that night, anyways…

So a few days later, we sat down and talked about things and everything was back to being good… right? Well, yeah, for a little while. You should know by now, diary, that my love life really never goes totally smoothly.

Then came the first time we… ya know, did it. I know we probably should have taken things a bit slower, but both our hearts were screaming that this was right, and my own was saying ‘don’t worry, trust him’. So I did.

That night was wonderful. He swept us away to a magical place he’d created just for us. It was filled with passion, love and joy. It was... a night I’ll never forget.

Have you gotten the point that he’s a bit of a romantic yet? Just checking.

And here comes the hard part- my Tigger. I left him a note telling him that I wasn’t going to be home that night. That I was in fact spending the night with my prince charming. I knew Sully most likely wouldn’t be happy about it, but I also knew if I told him in person that I wouldn’t be leaving the house that night, either. So I took the chicken’s way out.

Confused yet?

Well, just wait it gets so much worse. But not at the moment... cause here comes piglet and Cae walking down the beach toward me and I really don’t think all this info needs to be in either of their hands.

I promise to fill you in later,

~Me

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