FIC: More Entries of Love (2/2)

BY: Scarlet

SERIES: Steppin’ Up

ARC: Lesson from the Book of Love

RATED: PG-ish

SUMMARY: Catching up my diary on what’s been happening…

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November 12, 2004

Okay, okay… I know I promised to get back to you soon Diary but it’s just been a mad house around here… par for the course, but I’ve snuck away for a few minutes and I’ll see if I can tell you the rest of it. I’m not promising I’ll get too far.

So there we were at the castle. I couldn’t believe he’d gone to this much trouble… I know I should have known by now that he would, but I just didn’t really think…

The bedroom itself was quiet substantial, rich with deep burgundies and golds. An enormous four poster antique mahogany bed draped with silken fabric sat in the middle of the long wall. Directly across from it was a large fireplace with a roaring fire already ablaze and to the right of that sat a pair of over sized antique chairs.

To the left of the bed was a bank of windows that took up a good portion of the wall, showing one of the most amazing views I’d ever seen. Just in front of the window sat a chaise straight out of a romance novel- elegant with rich velvet and truly wondrous to relax on- although I didn’t find how comfortable it was until the next day.

The room was so beautiful and so perfect it left me speechless and made me cry… My heart is truly one amazing man. But that’s something I’ve always known about him. And that’s why I love him so.

After a short time we explored the rest of our suite a little, first the sitting area- the one without the tv. Which I could tell disappointed him a little, but I knew we could find other things to keep us occupied. I mean, after all, we could watch television at home and that’s not why were here… or rather that’s what I was hoping.

But the more we wandered in and out of the rooms in our suite, the more unsure I became. I knew this was something I wanted so badly, but I didn’t know if he still wanted it, too…

The longer we took in each room, the more uncertain I became. My mind raced. What if he was rethinking this? Maybe he really didn’t want me forever?

All the doubt came back in an icy cold rush that left me wanting to run and hide. I knew I couldn’t face it if he’d changed his mind and I also knew I didn’t really have any way to get home either- after all, it was Tis who had orbed us there.

By the time we’d left the bathroom, I was almost sure he’d changed is mind. With his fingers still twined in mine we walked back in to the bedroom, coming to stop beside the foot of the bed.

I’m not sure if he’d picked up on how I was feeling or if it showed on my face but somehow he knew.

Turning to me he murmured, “Petal-luv, we’s don’… I means, if’n y’ don’ wan’…” and I could hear the catch in his voice. That tiny note of uncertainty told me I’d been wrong- he wasn’t rethinking it. He wanted it just as much as I did.

And then his words registered- and I froze.

Oh, goddess. He thought *I* didn’t want to go though with it. That was so not what I wanted him to think. So I did the one thing I could think of.

Wrapping my free hand around his neck I pulled him close, kissing him as deeply and as thoroughly as I think I’ve ever kissed him. I was so relieved when he kissed me back just as passionately.

With my lips still pressed against his, I told him how I’d never been more sure about anything in my life. Then I kissed him again, letting my hand trail down his neck, shoulder, and finally his back.

Just like with our claim, we took our time, taking turns undressing one another and trailing kisses over the soft skin that we revealed.

My hands caressed his shoulder sending his shirt to pool on the plush carpet as I kissed his chest over his heart. “You are my Heart, Sully… You were the one that showed me that love had no boundaries...” I whispered. “I will forever be in your debt…”

Everything about that night was magickal… in some ways it felt like our first time all over again… gentle, and a bit unsure. But in other ways it felt like we were made for each other and had always been as one. It’s confusing, I know… but I don’t really know quite how to explain it.

When it came to actually saying the ritual words for the Mating, and exchange of blood… something happened. I’m not sure exactly what, but something did… there was this strange sense of him being inside me and of me being inside of him at the same time. Then when I came back to myself it never quite left.

I know very little about Wiccan ways of life and not much more about my own Fae culture, but somehow I believe what they say is true… for there really is a very thin veil between the living and the non, at least on Samhain. And it takes very little for the realms to mingle and become one on this great night of the New Year.

And now, almost two weeks later… if I concentrate real hard or if he does, I can not only sense him but read his thoughts, too.

Not like I can with Bear, Wolfe or Cae… but more than I ever have before or thought was possible. We also seem to know how the others’ feelings and what they seem to need most of the time, as well... I feel truly blessed for this most precious of gifts I’ve had bestowed upon me.

I’m not sure what’s going to become of this… maybe this feeling will grow or maybe it will fade over time. All I know for sure is, I’m really hoping for the first one and will mourn the loss if the second happens. I like having my heart close at hand.

Well, I think that’s all I’m going to have time for right now ‘cause he knows I’m thinking about him and he’s looking for me. And I can’t keep my Mate waiting… or at least this one, I can’t.

Until Later,

~Dee